Monday, April 6, 2009

Baby Blankets: Loveies, Snugglies & Heartbreak

Birk's blanket, which for some reason she calls Fuji, is missing.  There is not much left of this lovey, it is tattered, threadbare and torn--held together with clumsily stitched embroidery thread of every color.

Fuji was gifted to us with our first baby, John.  My husband's Godmother gave us this silky soft, 100 percent cotton, dry clean only (I kid you not) white baby blanket imported from Scotland.  It covered John when he was a teeny babe in the bassinet and then went on to do the same for Ruth.

We snuggled baby Birk in it, too.  Then something magical happened:   for some strange reason that only young babies know, she chose that blankie as her special something.  It had to go everywhere she went and has had it's fair share of adventures already.

It's best adventure was being left on a plane from Detroit to San Francisco.  Our camera, also left on the plane, disappeared, but some kind soul recognized a good lovey when s/he saw it and put it aside.  George beamed the hour drive back to the airport and returned with Fuji in his arms.

Now that Birk is 7, she doesn't require Fuji to be present for every waking or sleeping moment. That is why, Fuji has wandered for long periods from time to time.  Well, this time, Fuji may have wandered for good.  We've turned the house inside out and upside down and searched everywhere we can think that's possible.  Fuji has disappeared.

Both mother and daughter are consumed by unexplained crying fits that come and go.  It's such a huge icon of her babyhood for both of us.  There's a sense of childhood passing and I'm afraid it's really the beginning of her life and my life as big girls together.

12 comments:

Terri said...

I am so sorry!!! My heart really hurts for you.... I am a very sentimental person and have so many "things" that my babies loved tucked away in boxes!!! I hope you find Fuji soon! :(

Donna@www.frugaldonna.blogspot.com said...

Following from MBC!

Melissa said...

Aww, how sad. I hope you find it.

Staci said...

I'm so sorry :( That makes me cry with you! Madison and Anthony have their loveys and I don't want them to ever go missing :( I hope you find Fuji....

blueviolet said...

That actually makes me kinda sad that she lost it. :(

Deb said...

Thanks, everyone, for you kind thoughts. The funny thing is that everyone said that you need to buy duplicate 'Fujis.' Alas, it was impossible to replace by the time Birk adopted it as her own. 6 years and a move across the continent to a new country blew that for me.

I'm not giving up, I'm still looking...

Veronica Lee said...

I hope you find Fuji soon.

Jennifer said...

:-( I'm so sorry to hear about Fuji. I do hope you find it soon!

AudreyO said...

My daughter is grown. She still has her baby blanket. I'll have to ask my other daughter is she still has hers. Both girls always enjoyed having their blankets around.

Deb said...

Veronica and Jennifer: Thanks for the good karma! It's nice to know hopeful thoughts are coming my way.

Audrey: Those blankets are magical. For me, it was my stuffed kitty. She still sleep next to my bed :)

~Jamie said...

That is terrible! Come back Fuji!!

Dagmar Bleasdale said...

Dear Deb, thanks for visiting my blog! I enjoy reading yours. So sad that Fuji is gone. My Landon doesn't have anything he loves that much (except for his ba-ba (breast milk)!) and that can be tough too :)